Thursday, October 3, 2024

Meeting a writer? Be very afraid


Has this ever happened to you? Someone tells you they write books and you’re not sure how to react. Here’s a tip: Be very afraid. You’ve just met a person of ruthless determination. 


That person stares down one blank page and vows, “I’m going to fill this vast emptiness with so much compelling and original thought that readers I’ve never met will not only absorb every word, but they’ll greedily want to devour every single page that follows.” He or she will repeat this process until he or she has vanquished the next 350 pages. 


Don’t be fooled by the writer’s benign appearance. The writer is a mass murderer. He or she has silenced all the voices that nag, “You’re wasting your time. Your ideas suck. Why don’t you get a real job?” And these are just the voices the writer hears inside his or her own head. 


The writer is relentless. Once he or she vows to finish the book, a grim singlemindedness takes over and the writer becomes impervious to distractions he or she mocks as frivolous. These duties may include things like childcare, residential upkeep and the relationships others consider so vital to mental well-being.


The writer is Messianic. He or she believes God ordains that the book must be written because its publication will lead to justice, understanding, social equality and MLB playoff games that conclude before midnight.


So show a little respect next time some stranger says he or she writes books.


Hell, there are things those writers could teach the aspirants to SEAL Team 6.

 

Friday, September 20, 2024

AI & newborns: when change is inevitable


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There weren’t many but there were enough of them that I had the sarcastic retort holstered and ready to be drawn.


It was 24 years ago and Val was about to deliver our first baby. We were unaware of the sex, but in what is now one of the lamest “Spoiler alerts!” that child was a female, born September 25, 2000. We named her Joslyn Rachel Rodell.


But right up to the moment she was born, she was a vast unknown, a vast 7-pound unknown. So many questions.


Boy or girl? Curly or straight haired? Savior or Satan?


That last one became a category after a handful of friends would greet the otherwise joyous news as if we expectant parents were being sent to a Siberian gulag for stealing a peach.


Their eyes shone with gleeful prophesy; their tone was one of vengeance spared not.


“So you’re having a baby. Ahhh …” Now, cue the cackle: ‘Boy, are your lives gonna change!’”


It became for me a hanging curve.


“Whew, boy, am I glad to hear it — ‘cause up til now, our lives have really, really sucked!”


It’s for lines like that that sarcasm was invented by, I think, a war-weary French soldier in response to Napoleon’s 1815  rally cry of, “We take Waterloo and the world is ours. Who’s with me!”


See, our lives had not sucked. Au contraire. We enjoyed travel, attending concerts, fancy dinners, and quiet nights at home reading or watching movies.


It was a very happy time.


So we found out the very first night our antagonists had been correct. Our lives really did charge.


They got better.


Much better. It’s impossible to gauge how happy being the father of darling Josie — and Lucinda Grace in ’06 — have made me.


Today, man, it’s been 24 years, bolstering my contention that time doesn’t fly. It drives a Maserati drunk down the Autobahn with a brick strapped to the gas pedal. 


But, oh, those 24 years. Old pictures pop up here and there and I see me smiling with those little girls in my arms and I don’t think I’ve ever seen a picture of a happier human.


Me!


The joyful memories are indelible. I’ve always been a happy fellow, but having our kids changed everything. They made it so much better.


I was thinking of those changes because I’ve allowed myself to descend into melancholy over the doomsday scenarios involving the inevitability that one day soon Artificial Intelligence would really, really change the world.


It would improve our existence or, whoop-sie-daisy, end it.


We can make a strong argument that our time is up. There’s war, climate change, ancient tribal hatreds, and on and on and …


Good riddance!


But what if they’re wrong? What if the reverse happens and AI ushers in a golden age where debilitating diseases are vanquished, leisure activities are allowed to flourish, and we all see ourselves and one another through appreciative new eyes.


I hope those are the benign kind of changes that surprise us.


So let’s not give into despondency over changes and consequences none of us can see.


Because being a living, breathing human being is still pretty sweet thing. 


Despite our world of woe, we can still enjoy watching a nail-biter at PNC Park, a fine meal on Pittsburgh’s Mt. Washington, and a night of romantic snuggling that’ll lead to the creation of one of those tiny, messy, wailing organisms the killjoys say will really change things.


Change is coming.


With so much division we need to understand that us being all wrong can still turn out all right.


I say we embrace change.


Because up til now, things have really, really sucked.








Monday, June 10, 2024

Latrobe Bulletin readers select favorite Local Author: It's me!

 

Thank you, Latrobe Bulletin readers for selecting me as your Favorite Local Author! Here's the letter-to-the-editor I wrote acknowledging the honor ...


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I must confess when my wife-to-be and I moved to Latrobe in ’92, it wasn’t because of the schools, the recreational opportunities, the history, or the character of the people, which I’ve come to regard as the most stellar on the planet.


No, I moved here because of the looming threat of Y2K pandemonium. Remember that panic? A numeric computer glitch was going to confuse all our critical machines into believing it was really the year 1900. That was three years before the Wright brothers first flight. Top experts warned the scenario would so befuddle modern aircraft that the machines would forget how to fly and begin to drop out of the sky.


Banks would fail, electricity would cease, our vehicles would  roll to a stop.


I read all this and my first thought was, “Hmmm, where in the world could I find a small town home that’s near a quality brewery that’ll ensure local residents have ready access to thirst quenching American lager?”


Hello, Latrobe!


I look back in hindsight and am amazed that a man so shallow-minded in every other way held such a deep capacity for cold beer. 


I jest, but Latrobe did have a unique set of intangibles appealing to a young writer eager to differentiate himself from the hordes of talented but indistinguishable freelancers working in NYC.


It had Arnold Palmer, Fred Rogers, Steeler training camp, Rolling Rock beer, banana splits and a host of other notables that made great ice breakers for Manhattan editors who were happy to take a look at stories included in the gift bags from “That Latrobe guy.”


In Manhattan I was that Latrobe guy. In Latrobe, I was just another guy.


But I grew to cherish the designation. Because I became pals with other Latrobe guys and some if them were giants. I had regular lunches with men like Vince Quatrini Sr., Ned Nakles Sr. Dennis Rafferty, and Mike and Terry Ferguson. We’d line up at the bar  at Baldonieri’s, the conversation often directed by Holly Baldonieri (now Holly Rutter Bush, incidentally one of my favorite “local” authors).


Now, many small towns can boast an austere line-up of bright leading citizens. I contend what makes Latrobe unique is the quality of our goofballs and misfits. They’re profane, witty, profound and capable of brilliant outbursts of confounding intellect that add volatile color to every conversation. They can be rude, crass, belligerent and leave you wondering how the same town that raised Fred Rogers could have produced these jackasses.


It’s why some visitor or new resident eager to make a flattering impression will mistakenly gush that “everyone here in Latrobe is just so nice.”


“If you think that about everyone in Latrobe,” I say ominously, “then you haven’t met everyone in Latrobe.”


It’s why I’m bracing myself for the ribbing I’m bound to endure when word gets around that Latrobe Bulletin readers voted me “Latrobe’s Favorite Local Author.”


Friends will wonder if there’s even a runner-up, if I voted for myself and the tally was me, 1, and “other,” nothing, etc.


That’s not fair to the many, many talented writers who struggle with priorities and yearn, like I still do, for a commercial or critical breakthrough that will justify all their dreams.


Joke all you want. I couldn’t be more pleased by the declaration. You know, at one time Arnold Palmer was likely The Bulletin readers’ “Favorite Local Golfer.” 


The vote count isn’t what makes it special. The title is all it needs. So I say this with all due humility.


I’m, ahem, special.


But only because you’re special.


Two of my most popular books are offbeat bios of local legends — take a wild guess — Arnold Palmer and Fred Rogers.


You have no idea how lucky purely as a writer that makes me. I got to spend more than two years inside the heads of Fred and Arnold, two of the most monumental men in history. Men who coincidently happen to be perfect gentlemen, both lively, creative, fun and wise.


Many of you helped put me there. My stories are your stories. I only knew them (mostly) through you.


A writer — any writer — producing a portrait must immerse themselves in the lives of his or her subject or the paint will smear.


Try and imagine how different I would be if I lived in, say, a small Long Island town where the local writers seeking to capitalize on notoriety had to choose between Bernie Madoff and Joey Buttafuccuo. Or Jeffrey Dahmer.


I’d be coarser, darker, more cynical. A Beautiful Day in The Neighborhood?


More like a sinister one.


Check out the places that sell my books — and God bless ‘em! —Youngstown Grille, Eclectique, Pat’s Hair & Nail Place,  Latrobe Art Center, Greater Latrobe-Laurel Valley Chamber of Commerce, 512 Coffee & Ice Cream, Tin Lizzy (honorable mentions to neighbors in Ligonier and Greensburg, Second Chapter Books, DV8 Coffee and Barnes & Noble).


What do these places have in common?


They’re happy places where convivial folks go to do and enjoy things that nourish the soul.


And they welcome my books at these places.


So thank you, Latrobe Bulletin readers, for making me your Favorite Local Author.


And thank you, Latrobe, for making me the kind of writer worthy of the honor.


Saturday, June 1, 2024

May tweets (sorta) of the month (May)

 Remember when tweets used to be limited to 140 characters. Some of these are 140 words. I like being free to write what I feel but we're missing something. Not much, but something ...

Enjoy your weekend!





• Was looking forward to a rare night at home with just me and soon-to-be graduate when plans abruptly changed. It was not to be. So I was surprised to see her walking through the door asking me if I still had some grilled steak left. I did. She sat with me for 10 minutes saying how good each bite was. I would certainly have understood if she'd been a no show. Instead, she slowed down and took the time to make me feel special. I'll remember that longer and more touchingly than if everything had gone as planned. There's a lesson in there: Those who go out of their way to make others feel special are the ones who become special.



• Our right brains are creative; left practical. I’ve made left brain decisions with the right and right brain decisions with the left with no thoughtful result. Some decisions seem to have been made fully left brain and some the reverse. I look back on many major decisions in my life think I on the big questions I was at the time utterly brainless. I guess things have worked out decently because I somehow maneuvered the questions into what you’d call no brainers. And I have the perfect thought capacity to handle big no brainers


• “History repeats itself” and so do pompous observers eager to appear wise by offering dandy bromides involving redundancy of times gone by instead of fresh insight.


• Given the number of horses who win “by a nose,” I predict enterprising breeders will soon focus on breeding horses with really, really long noses. Like noses as long as a horse! Imagine the finish line advantages.


• Scientists who declare Earth is 4.5 billion years old are way off. It’s not even 1.That’s because every year Earth goes through the same wild growth spurt where unruly vegetation grows in unusual places, things become annoyingly loud and the lawns need mowed every 2 days. Earth cannot age. It’s in perpetual puberty. 


• I’m reluctant to wade into politics here, but yesterday’s trial left me confused. How does a woman who’s earned a living often on her knees or her back ever swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth while seated in a place called “the stand.”



• I need a car, but to afford a car I’d need to get a job and getting a job would cut into all the time I enjoy spent leaning against a bar. Solution! Enter one of those contests where whomever can touch or lean non-stop against the prize car longest gets to keep it. Sometimes it takes 3 straight days. Big whoop. I’ve been leaning against one bar or another for 4 straight decades. What’s truly amazing? Just two pee breaks.



• I’d rather be known as an offbeat writer with soft topics and little market penetration than one with hard topics and massive penetration. I guess it comes down to preferring to be an offbeat writer than being what I guess you could call a beatoff writer.


• I understand the comfort of believing Earth is flat but wonder about the whole package. For instance: What’s on the other side? Is it smooth? Convex? Or are there roots and shit?


• I’ve had some kind of spiced chicken everyday for the last week. Enough! I won’t take another bite. That’s right. I’m going cold turkey on hot chicken.


I know what some of you are thinking. You didn’t like that one. You’re thinking, “Fowl!”



• I caught myself mentally mocking a pear-shaped friend who claimed he spent an hour a day exercising and immediately felt shame. Who am I to judge? Me judging anyone is clearly a case of the pot (belly) calling the kettle (corn) black (velvet cake).


• I’ve long wondered how much more advanced humanity would be if we chose our partners based on shared interests rather than how nice one another’s butts look in tight jeans. Try this: Imagine how appealing you’d be to potential mates if they looked at you and saw only the textures of your brain. Alright, alright. Your brain in a Speedo.


• The internet has meant the demolition of permanence. Things we thought would be with us forever, they come and they go. Mark my words: In 10 years you’re going to say to some kid, “Let’s Google it” and the kid is going to say, “What’s google?” And you’ll feel yourself break out into a cold sweat when you realize your instinct is to google “Google.”



• We hear it sometimes in whispers, sometimes in shouts: “If you don’t make any money writing, why do it? Why? We write for all the times a  reader will smile at us` for something we’ve written and the smile will be so soulful and warm you know instantly it’s genuine. It’s the smile of an innocent who entrusted you with her virginity and is now aglow with the realization that the condition was dispensed of with skill and enthusiasm. Who among us is so crass that we’d take money for the privilege of merely being chosen for the randy role? Not me!


• I’m becoming so consumed with word games when I see a name like Alan Alda my mind immediately begins to deconstruct it to see how many points I can get for alternatives, A LAND ALA … DALA LAN … NADAL LA …


• Golfing with John Rusbosin and friends. Will take full advantage of their good natures to play numerous practical jokes like exaggerating my back pain until one of them offers to tee my ball for me. I’ll gratefully thank them then spend the next two minutes watching them all hunched over and growing more and more exasperated as I say, “Higher … higher … Lower … Higher … Too high … Lower … Higher”


I never dreamed I’d miss an artist the way I miss Tom Petty, who’ll be gone 7 years in October. It was Petty who personified America’s love/hate relationship with recreational drugs. In the 2007 rockumentary, “Runnin’ Down A Dream,” Petty is asked about the drugs that killed friends and bandmates. Looking fittingly forlorn, Petty laments, “Drugs are just awful. They suck the souls out of people. Put a big pile of drugs in front of people and it just leads to ruin.” But then you see a mischievous glint in his eye and he leans forward and with a conspiratorial cackle asks the off-camera reporter, “You don’t happen to have any drugs, do you?” So, of course, he died at the age of 66 of — wait for it — an accidental drug overdose! It’s ever since been my custom to end all family dinner prayers with, “… and please, God, be sure to tell Tom Petty we really miss him.” Amen


I’m fed up with the grinding tedium of grooming my finger and toe nails roughly every three weeks. It often takes me more than 20 minutes to maintain proper length. That’s 20 minutes of bending, leaning and writhing like a contortionist to get the job done. No more. Instead of doing them all at once as of today I will do just one toe or finger every day for 3 weeks or 21 days. Because I only have 20 tiny toe and finger nails and it’ll be spread out over 21 days, I’m going to need a Leap Nail Day to keep the sessions in sync. On that day, I’ll post here on Facebook that I’ll be available to trim one friend’s nail. Now, I’m sure I can get a nail, but just who is going to give me the finger? Anyone?


• I’m thinking I’m just not cut out to be the reclusive writer type. Why just the other day ‘i had an enterprising reader breach the compound guard walls, vault the moat, evade the rottweilers and knock on the front door of my house to buy 10 “Crayons!” books for future leaders. My response to this brazen invasion of my privacy? I said, “Sure you don’t wanna make it an even dozen!”